Time and time again you make the same mistakes! Why do you not listen to your soul, your higher self. There need not be any worry, but you ask for it, to prove you are not worthy of anything better.
While your mind is set in this way you are barring the onset of brighter days. Is it not the cloud that travels across the land waiting for the moment where it cannot hold the rain no more. Does your life have to come to a point where you can hold no more? The cloud has no choice it is swept across the sky by the wind. And rain falls depending on the lie of the land.
Such forces as these do not govern you; you are only governed by your own actions. Follow the way of the eagle, utilise the harshness of the wind, learn how to ride the wind, learn how to ride the turbulences of life. Utilise the lie of the land, rest when you are weary, and rise high above all, to the heights of your higher self, to choose the best direction to follow in times of uncertainty.